so it's finally christmas break. the ultimate, best, super duper greatest break ever invented! i'm going to be really busy this break... but, i'll get through it. i don't really want to take finals... i'm mostly worried about history and chemistry. mostly about history. cos i know behrens has a heart to maybe curve our chem exam grades aha. since we all fail in that class. or maybe that's just me. rofl. but anyways. yeah. school's been school... stressed and a crap load of homework i can't handle. i complain a lot and i procrastinate a lot. hence why i struggle in school so much. band's been band... so much 'band drama' but good thing i'm not a part of any of it :D or at least i don't think so lol. symphonic band wooped us at christmas concert, super shocking, i knoooow. i felt so embarrassed to be a part of honors band. i mean we weren't super horrible. but it was bad lol. it's hard being on a small retreat team. not hard. but it's weird. usually the retreat team is big. but knowing that only fourty people'll be at this upcoming retreat, it'll be fine. it won't be a hundred like it normally is. pretty sad, eh? i really do hope so much and pray soo much that the retreat will be good. it will be life changing to the little ones. 'cos i feel like we're not striving to be better and are excited about it. 'cos everyone's all blah that it's a one day thing. i mean, yeah it's a one day thing but a lot can happen in one day, you know? (i should be constantly telling this myself since i sometimes complain that it's a one day retreat lmao). but.. i don't know. just gotta trust that it's in God's hands. and whatever happens, happens. and it's the way God intended it to happen, you know? i really do pray. so much. but yesss. the year is coming to and end. 2009 is around the corner. can't say "im not ready"... it'll happen eventually haha. but, yeah. tomorrow i'm going to go to simbang gabi, something that i've always wanted to do. despite the fact that i can somewhat understand tagalog, its just the atmosphere of it all. i wonder how simbang gabi is celebrated at the philippines. ohh man. i bet it's super lovely over there. early in the morning to praise God with a bunch of corny filipinos. hearing the roosters' cockadoodledoo when the sun rises. and the christmas feeling and ah. i bet thats nice :) but anyways. that's that! hope i have a memorable christmas and new years this year, compared to all the other previous years. i really do hope this year is different. different as in... a better way lol. have fun and be safe over the holidays! :)

<3 krystin

What's the haps...

I've been blogging less lately. Life's been treating me pretty good. My parents are currently in the Philippines, won't be back 'till next Wednesday, leaving me stuck with Keisha for two weeks haha. I love her and all but man, sometimes I need my space LOL. But they'll be back soon enough. Hurricane Ike has been horrible, cancelling school for a freaking week I thought living with Keisha would just be regular, just different atmosphere. But I guess not... one week without parents and one week without school? Heck yes haha. But I really do kinda' wanna go back to school rofl. We're so behind, especially band omg. I don't want to think about band. I heard Austin had band practice today aha. I'm assuming Clements had a lot of practices, the fact that this year is area. It's kinda' sad that we are the ones who need it -- the most LOL, literally. Haven't even touched the 3rd movement. The sets and music LOL. Haven't even marched w/ music for the 2nd movement lol sad. But I blah oh well. I got my new digital slr camera btw :) It makes me so happy! HEHE. Canon Rebel XSi 12 megapixel. It's super big. And I hope my computer will be able to maintain all those big photos, esp with the cpu being super slow already lol. GOALS. goals. Goals in life. I look up to my cousin Arianne. She inspires me to set my goals and reach them, no matter how bizarre they sound. After Ike (hopefully I'll keep this goal since I keep breaking it LOL) I want to stay in shape. And stay fit. And get 'em sexy abs rofl. I was suppose to get them in August but I miserably failed. I want to save my lunch money. And only use it when I need to. That way, with that money, and my senior year's lunch money, plus my summer jobs, I'll be able to pay for some of my grand vacation at the Philippines and also new camera lenses :) :) I really do want to develop future, nice pictures and frame them around the house. For pete's sake, I haven't even developed pictures from Freshman year :( But, yeeeah. I just want enough money to get me a few new lenses (that's a lot of money o_O) and pay for some of the expenses when I go to the Philippines. And when I go to college, I have to save up more money... to buy my own car :( Btw, I did get my license. And I am currently driving the hand-me-down golden, cursed camry (two flat tires, two car accidents, basketball goal fell on the windshield lol). And I have to leave it behind when I go to college and buy my own car. Sigh. But I guess it's fair for me, since that goes for my brothers too. But yeahh. MmmmMm. Three more days until back to school. The weather is REALLY nice. :) Alright. I'm done.

<3 Krystin

nights in rodanthe is coming out in september. another nicholas sparks movie? man... they really should make a movie out of The Wedding, the sequal of The Notebook and it is SO good and VERY unexpected. i looooove that book lol

band camp has been alright. our new director, mr hill, is really strict. he's fresh from dci, maybe that's why we're not accustomed with being SUPER serious and getting less water breaks. i still don't understand. one water break for every hour? and it feels like it's not even a full five minute break -_- and we're learning drill tomorrow. not so excited anymore since the directors explained to us how it's going to be REALLY strict and whatever. i mean i know drill is important and stuff. but i remember my freshman year, learning drill and what you're suppose to do and stuff... but i had FUN -- watching the section leaders race each other marking their section... watching them in pain while they bend over and mark their section too haha... seeing the pictures form from set to set... laughing and racing other people to see ewho can find their next set first.. you know. stuff like that. and also during breaks.. having fun while music is playing and just relaxing. we don't do that anymore. little we break up into sections, but we only break up into sections when mr hill is gone and soto is with us. i like marching with soto... he's assertive yet his voice sounds friendly. hill's voice is just so... professional and strict and nazzle tone. but i don't know. i guess we're just not used to being taught with detailed fundamentals and crap =\ i don't know. i'm just wondering where did the fun go in marching band rofl. lunch is okay... but i really do miss watching my brother and other boys play basketball during lunch and stuff. i just.. sit around and talk lol. but yeah. my section's getting pretty good in my opinion. some are behind with fundamentals butchyah. i have nothing to talk about so might as well talk about band LOL. i ran a bronco two days ago! oomg. it was my first one and i was sunked. blaaah. i hated it lol. but yeah. i'm getting my textbooks tomorrow. making me realize that school is really around the corner. its in less than two weeks. im still doing summer reading. i still need to do assignments. i still need to do apush assignments. and man. i've realized i took SO many AP classes that i don't think i'll be able to do it. apush. english ap. physics ap. pre-cal. chem2 ap. the only class i'm not worried about is pre-cal ... and precal only LOL. the rest... i'm doomed to die. i'm thinking of dropping physics ap to regular. but prob its too late now and the counselor probably wouldn't be able to work around my sched with band being first pd and all. booooo. but yeah. i really am scared for junior year. with ap tests. with psats and sats. and more tests. ap styled tests. marching season. just EVERYTHING. i thought sophomore year was hard cos i hated sophomore year. i hated to study. i used to LOVE going to school in middle school 'cos i loved learning. i loved getting math work LOL im dead serious. i loved writing english papers and reading in english class. but now its like ugggh, how come i don't like it anymore? 'cos its harder rofl. but yeahh. i think that if i learn to like or PRETEND to like something, i understand it more. like reading. i hate summer reading. but i force myself to like it in order to understand it LOL im a loser. but yeah. im scared. i don't know if i should drop out of physics ap. im not even good in science. so. what am i going to do for the rest of the school year? blah. I HATE BEING INDECISIVE! okay, im going to sleep lol peace-es

<3 krystin

Supposedly there's suppose to be a storm/hurricane here in Houston. For the past few hours, it's just been drizzlin' rain and our electricity is still running (hence how I'm typing this entry). Well, last night everybody totally blew my brains out of my head. I got so infuriated, it was disgusting to see me so angry. There were just SO many people talking to me, all about different things and I act like I can handle everything. I act like I can please everybody. I try too, but who the heck am I kidding? I'm not perfect so why do I even strive to be that perfect friend? So.. I'm going to stop trying. But that doesn't mean I'm going to stop trying at being a good friend -- just at being a perfect one. But that's over, I was insane last night and I really don't want to remember it lol.
August is here which is surprising. I can still remember in June when summer was so long and boring. Then July quickly came by and next thing I know.. school is less than a month? Unbelievable. It's sad to say that I'm STILL doing summer reading. And I STILL haven't started my summer assignments. But with the tiny motivation that's left inside me, hopefully I'll take it into consideration and hurry and finish these stupid assignments. Sigh. I really don't know what I'm ahead for, you know, for junior year. It's really scary. I'm scared. Literally. I can't stop thinking about it. I'm about to be a junior, when honestly I can still remember being a freshman, looking up at the upperclassmen, thinking they were all old and I was so young. And now, I'm one of them. It feels so weird. I hope to be a better person along the rest of my high school journey. I really want to be looked up to and inspire people, just how people inspired me when I was a freshman. I really do. But you know, people always just talk and half the time they don't take action. But I'll keep my word. It's a promise.
But anyways... band is tomorrow. WOW. It's tomorrow, the heck? I remember being super excited for band camp back in early June when we still had school, and also how dreadful it'd be to be one step closer to junior year... but it's okay. I hope I can get through it all.
My parents are leaving me two weeks alone while they go to the Philippines. And they promised me I'd get my new camera before they leave. Though I really did want my camera during band camp but I'm still fine with waiting a few weeks more! I'm soooo excited! I dreamt having my own camera like a year or two ago. I told my parents I wanted it for my eighteenth birthday haha but hey, if they're offering to give me a camera as a early Christmas gift and to pay off my endless chores around the house -- be my guest :P I really do feel like I'm going to turn into a spoiled brat when my two brothers are off in college. I really don't want to, that's the only reason why I wanted a job. So I can actually do something and work for the money rather than asking my parents for extra cash for food or something.
But yeah, aaanyways... I'm about to get my license! Everytime I drive people say I look so tense. Don't I naturally look tense rofl. I remember Justin massaging my back this one time, saying I had a lot of tension in my shoulders. I didn't even know that. Maybe I need a massage! To loosen up! Yeaaaaah! B) But yeah, I'm going to be super paranoid when I drive, no kidddding, especially what happened to me last Thursday o_O haha.
Eating junk food as I'm stuck in the house isn't really helping my goal in being fit for band camp and losing at least five pounds before August ends hahaha. I remember freshman year, on the FIRST day of camp, we ran three laps around the red line. That was so HORRIBLE :( But.. yeah. I don't think I'm ready for that yet ahha. I'm gonna close this up 'cos I want to eat some pringles teehee :P Bye suckuhs

<3, Krystin

your grace is enough - chris tomlin :)

okay so. been going on nowadays? july is going by SO fast. and school is LESS THAN A MONTH! it's crazy fast. i can't catch up with life! why, why WHY! so yes... i did procrastinate with my reading. BUT im halfway done with the 2nd one. i just need to like, do the assignments, hopefully at least one, before school starts. i need to be one step ahead of my own game. i need to get this book down like NOW. summer reading's the only reason why i hadn't had the time to read two series of Twilight, which i SO want to since her new book is coming out in august :( this SUCKS. i have to wait 'till next year when i actually have the time to read lol. and NO i will not procrastinate then. (thats what we ALL say.) im getting my license in less than three weeks! i'm so excccited :) too bad i have to drive the cursed, jacked-up camry car.. but it's okay! at least its a car hahah. woodwind/brass camp has been going okay. it's really long, but at least we get things done. we met the new director! mr. hill! he's like really young, almost half the age of soto's LOL. he's SUCH a dorky person, as what he said, it's so funny 'cos its so opposite of soto. soto is a dork but in a very annoying, weird way. he taught glassmen and him comin' to bush will be his officially first time teaching an actual hs band. and its like man. he should prepare for OUR weirdness and traditions and whatnot. he's in for a really big surprise bwahaha. man. he's gonna LOVE us to death, i guarantee you! lol we're almost done with uniforms. it was so efficient and fast and smooooth and NOT crazy. it was pretty good! all we need is a few more uniforms and sashes and thats it! last year it took us FOREVER to put all the uniforms together lmfao. hey the uniform is clean! to mia and alli. we cleaned it in the beginning of june LOL it really is pretty :) with the sweet smell of FRESH! i've been waiting for SO long to be able to breathe properly in that uniform room LOL. but anyways, arianne and i have been doing some family tree searching and what not, it's been so fun. first we started on the maliwanags side. found out that we're not having a reunion with THAT side of the family, but rather on the reyes side LOL! i was like maan. and i just realized like, all my 2nd cousins are practically almost all pale and chinky eyes. and its like "man. they have reyes blood in 'em" and i do too. cant you see my pale skin? hahaha. im SUPER excited for the family reunion, though its next summer! i can't wait to meet all my new 2nd cousins and HOPEFULLY, just hopefully, my wonderful cousins who live in the philippines and will be able to get their visas and skip school for this reunion. i pray SOO much that almost everybody'll be able to come! arianne and i are co-planning this until the grownups take charge. im so excited! :) :) junior year is gonna pass by SUPER fast. though stressful :( and though very hard. next thing we know, it's december, about to take semester exams. and then summer again? wth? haha. and our buddy ryan finally added us on facebook LOL, man i wonder if he ever thinks we like to make fun of him. or whatnot haha. ummm. yeah! im actually cleaning the house. every monday, wednesday and fridays. i've cleaned a LOT and yet my house is still a big mess. and a slob. how interesting that is -___-' freaking parents and bro. but yeah, i'm excited for the rest of august. i can't wait what else God has in store for me :)

<3 krystin